This Calls for a List

I am sure there are many, many more lists to come along this journey, mostly of the packing and preparatory nature, but this week has been especially fully of cool little encouraging moments. So without any further rambling, here goes:

1. I worry about Silas. I worry about his health, his adjustment to getting home, his development, the mysteries that are waiting for us on the other side of this journey and lots of other little things. One particular day this week, i think it was Tuesday, i had been thinking a lot about Silas' health and development, wondering and dare i say worrying. While i was cooking dinner the doorbell rang and a package arrived from my little sister Misty. She had been doing her sister thing and buying up a bunch of stuff for Silas. I opened the package and there was whole plethora of super cute little baby things along with a few things for Ava and Atley. There was one little piece of clothing though that helped me to get my mind/heart straight for the day. It was quite the kick in the butt really. It was this little romper with a monkey lifting a barbell and on it were the words, "Stronger than you think." I burst into tears. And once again the heaviness of the day was eased by something simple, a little message of hope. On a romper. Made by Carters. Thanks Aunt Kitty. I love you.

2. As i have mentioned before i have been more than a little overwhelmed by the amount of reorganization that needs to take place before Silas comes home. It's funny really, although there are a few things that really MUST get done, many of the things on the list are things that would really just be nice to get done. Maybe it is my way of coping with the wait. Anyhow, also in the midst of all this we decided as a family that it is time for me to resign from my position at The Restoration House. So along with the list of things i said would likely never do/be (which apparently that list doesn't matter at all to God), i never thought i would be a 100% stay at home mom, never wanted to NOT be at home, just not 100% of the time--as in unemployed in the official sense of the word. On Wednesday afternoon i got the sprinkler out (IN APRIL), and let the kids play around, i just kept having this sense of urgency that i should go inside and get some "stuff done." I mean after all i have SO MUCH to do! But i just couldn't get myself to do it. I was SO enjoying that time outside with the kids, feeding them popsicles, playing bike wash and squirting water guns. It was a good moment, i had a conversation with a good friend about it. I think her words were, "We need to learn how to do that in every part of our lives." So I am trying, in these last few weeks of being a family of four, to really enjoy the end of an era, to as hokey as it sounds, cherish the little moments.

3. And now to Thursday. Wow. Thursday. It starts with a meeting Daniel had with our local radio DJ and friend, Marisa. They were meeting to discuss an upcoming TRH fundraiser and within the meeting Marisa mentioned that she had some tickets for us to a big event coming up. So this past Thursday was the big event, and the word "big" isn't the best word to describe it really. it was amazing. Hope in the Darkn, put on by Mike Hamilton's family (UT Athletic Director), was a fundraiser on several fronts. The money received during the event benefited Blood Water Mission as well as Show Hope. Both amazing organizations helping to make a difference in the water crisis as well as the plight of orphans in Africa. Show Hope is founded by Steven Curtis Chapman's family and serves to bring grants to families adopting internationally. Chapman ended the night with an acoustic set in which he shared his personal heart for his family and all that they have been through in the past few years. I simply cannot imagine the pain of losing a child. With that said, although there wasn't necessarily one big moment for me, it is still list worthy in that the evening was a huge reminder to me of how desperately i want my family to live outside ourselves, to always be aware of the world beyond Knoxville, TN. I want them to know and understand that $20 can buy 20 years worth of water for a person in Africa, that there are places in the world where they walk for miles to get water and it's dirty water! Lord, help me to teach my children to look beyond themselves.

4. Ok, gonna keep the next few short and light. Our new stroller arrived in the mail today! Woohoo!

5. One post on FB led to a ton of people offering to help us out in collecting baby stuff. It is good.

6. My hand is permanently damaged from writing thank you notes to people who have bought a tshirt or given toward our travel fund. That is good too!

7. ONE WEEK TIL COURT!

So there's the list. Feels good to review these things as i write them down, whether people are reading or not. ;)